Saturday, April 12, 2008

More Thoughts on Change

I've been thinking more about the concept of change and what it entails. I think the core of the question (thanks Juanita for reminding me of this) is how resilient we are. Everyone goes through change, some more than others. Sudden change tests our internal resolve, the very resilience of our beings.

Several years ago, I was tested almost to the breaking. That was the year my youngest was run over by a truck, my grandfather died, I separated and my middle daughter attempted suicide. Thankfully both girls survived, but it was an intensely stressful year. I'd always thought of myself as extremely resilient until then. Almost loosing two of my daughters in one years was the worst thing I've ever endured. But we all survived.

Right now, I don't want to go through any more changes in my life. I don't want my resilience tested again. I might not have enough left. Although I know if it comes right down to it, I'd survive again. I've done it before and will find the reserves deep inside myself to do it again.

Here is the start of my April TIF piece. The springboard was menopause, another large change in my life, but one I don't mind. I'll let this sit a bit before I start to quilt it--just to see if I need to change anything first.